Morning begins with a glass of water
a long stretch,
a small courage rising:
the nerve to answer the phone
to let someone in,
grateful that time
has offered itself again.
A ritual of small work:
the dish rinsed, the call returned.
Some days I scrub the same dish
to avoid answering the phone.
I gather in unity’s circle
in a room where hurt crowds every chair.
The person next to me
starts a sentence twice.
We wait
motionless,
until they find the rest.
We read the names of our dead
under the basement’s fluorescent hum
the ones who tried and hoped and fell.
Our truths slowly unfold,
patient
as the metal chairs we set in rows,
while the old hunger wins for a moment
somewhere across town.
The man I sat beside last Tuesday
does not come back.
Not everyone will see you as you are.
Not everyone needs to.
But who among us
doesn’t long to be free of the ache?
When goodbye sits heavy on the tongue
the only way out
is back through the face
in the bathroom mirror.
I wrap faith
around a dark stone
and carry it anyway
a step, a slip, a step
and slowly the mountain moves
a stone’s width a season
a shift once believed
impossible.
Restitution asks for quiet
and exact intentions:
a list in pencil
every name owed an apology.
Some I cross out.
Some I add.
Carrying confessions on hunched shoulders
door to door
I sweep my side of the street
and my opening hands
reach out to serve.
Evening closes gently.
The glass rinsed.
Set by the sink.
In the stillness
the body speaks its small truths:
hunger, anger, loneliness, fatigue.
Inventory becomes re-entry
a return to the self
capable of loving again
grateful
still
for one more day
to begin.